February 1, 2009

As I entered into this day I was fully optimistic about what it may bring in wake of an ever-loving God. It seemed to be entirely capable of bringing the best of the best, but it did not last. I was faced with a decision that would either continue the cycle of dissatisfaction and unpleasant thoughts, or I would make a change in my life that would help me to feel liberated in a sense. I chose liberation. For some time now I have been bound to a friendship that I truly cherished, but until now I was not entirely aware of how destructive this cycle was to my way of life. In making this decision I gave up one of the best friendships that I've ever had. I am starting a new chapter in my life (it seems that my life is FULL of chapters) but for the better of the worst I know that I am in God's hands. Eventually I will completely understand that God is the only constant in my life and that humanity will always fail me. I can only pray that I will grow from this experience and that moving on will ultimately be the best thing for both parties. The good times that I had will always be in my memory, but for now there can no longer be any growing in that specific path.